Published in Entropy, April 2021. Final Fantasy: A Reflection on Free Fall from the Heart of America’s Pandemic is a nonfiction personal essay written from March to May 2020, responding to COVID-19, invisibility, rage, and free fall.

It Was A Just Bad Shape was a chapbook I wrote in early 2018. I just came out of my seventh nervous breakdown, which was a sharp turning point for me. It is a hard read and extremely reactionary, rageful, and pummeling.

I also wrote another chapbook, Music Nonstop, in mid-late 2018, however, it is full of so much despair, that I don’t want to share it. But I mention it because it was a deep part of my growth.

And More and More This is Called How I Learned to Love is a poetry book that compiles poems from two previous chapbooks It Was Just A Bad Shape and Music Nonstop with poems I wrote in 2019 and early 2020. I was truly trying to bridge my past and present while deeply processing class, whiteness, gender, body, rape culture, and sexuality. How did I learn to love? How are men taught to love? Love as a trauma response vs. love as a choice.

From 2014-2016, I made a series of zines called Panda Report. Each zine had a specific topic (issue) that I would create very rough, bold text art around. In this issue I explore labor and the damaging, exploitive sensuality capitalism creates.

LAW, Rape Issue was a zine made by visual artist Allie Ludlow and I in Spring 2014. We used images and poetry to address several dynamics associated with rape and rape culture: the body as a target in violent, destructive patriarchy; how rape explodes the survivor’s nervous system, energy, and safety; the terror, disgust, self-disconnection, and pain; how all-consuming rape is.

GRAHAM SERIES, 2012-13

GRAHAM SERIES is a book of poetry I wrote from 2012-2013, chronicling my feelings during a relationship and then break up with my first boyfriend Graham. It’s obsessive, romantic, and beautiful; a total time capsule for me that mines how much closeting, homophobia, capitalism, and sexual abuse damaged me while also giving life to my needs for love, a body, and sexuality.

This nonfiction personal essay was written when I was unemployed in 2012, a paranoid reaction to the 2008 recession, leaving home, labor culture, poverty, technology, job hunting, youth, and exploitation.