In 2016, I performed Titan around 17 times around punk clubs, experimental DIY spaces, and smaller venues, utilizing drums, vocals, film, and photography to address themes of safety, defeat, capitalism, rape, whiteness, and nihilism. From 2013-2015, I made somewhere around 35+ different movements, all lyric and drum based, and would mash them up from performance to performance. While recovering memories, having flashbacks and night terrors, and processing the first 21 years of my trauma, I was also being traumatized on a daily basis through starvation and exploitation. I was struggling and I hated how much I had to survive. Psychologically, performing felt like too much, like a tripling of the trauma, and I stopped. I hope to get back to it.